I woke up this morning to the news of another terror attack in London, and all over social media people are pouring their hearts out about it. As more and more of these incidents occur, it is easy - even for Lightworkers of the highest faith - to slip into fear that our work isn't WORKING, that the world is going downhill anyway, and that we are inevitably heading towards another extinction. I mean, we live in a world where a man like Donald Trump is leading one of the most powerful countries on Earth!!! Surely that right there is evidence that we have gone off track. The world is going to shit and our futile efforts to shine some light into the darkness aren't working.
Well, I'm here to offer an alternative perspective that may be controversial. But hear me out.
Guess what happens when there is a terror attack? The world wakes up a little more. People all over the Earth have a little bit more of a heart opening. They FEEL for the people affected. Their empathy increases. Some get angry. This is also good. It is an empowering kind of anger. The kind that makes the small people stand up and say NO! I am NOT powerless, and this is NOT OK with me! The emotions that we all feel UNITE us.
And what about the victims who die through these attacks? I genuinely believe that when they cross over and go Home (to the spirit world) - it is high fives and fist bumps all round. There is huge CELEBRATION because those souls did what they came here to DO. Their participation in these events was SCRIPTED. By THEM! They will be partying it up over there and watching in awe as the effects of these events ripple over the whole Earth.
And here's the real controversial part. What about the attackers themselves?? How is there ANYTHING good about what they do? Well, for them, it's all about the cleansing. Any of you who have been on the spiritual path for a while will know that there is a LOT of inner healing to be done, and it gets messy. Have you noticed that often throughout the healing process, old situations that hurt you will re-create themselves so you can heal them and deal with them in a new way?? The Earth and the collective of humanity are ALSO experiencing this healing and cleansing. And just think about how much violence has happened in the history of this world. That is a whole lot of messy healing and cleansing to do right there! Also, the energy of the Earth has been so imbalanced because there has been a very dominant MASCULINE energy. And - apologies to the guys but I have experienced this to be true again and again - have you ever met a guy who used to be an asshole but woke up and spiritually evolved? What happened to his asshole-ness? Have you been around him while he's clearing and healing it? Yeah, he becomes a MASSIVE ASSHOLE all over again! Because his asshole-ness is COMING OUT. Every guy I've known on this path has gone through stages of being the most heavy, negative, angry, horrible person to be around while they are clearing. When I've been healing masculine aspects of myself I've done the same thing! And the collective is going through this. So asshole-ness and violence and hate and racism is abounding. Because our history is absolutely CHOCKA with it! Trust me when I say it's a good thing, although it's an unpleasant process to experience and witness.
When I went through a spiritual crisis in 2014 I had a moment when I 'broke through the clouds' into a higher dimension and immediately started laughing (despite being in horrific fear a moment before) because I realized how PERFECT everything was. I realized that everything was LOVE. I know what you're thinking - "Oh, yeah, that old cliche." That statement is bandied about a lot. But to really FEEL it and KNOW it...? WOW. That was something else. And when I say EVERYTHING IS LOVE, I mean EVERYTHING. I mean fear, hate, murder, violence, racism, the LOT. EVERYTHING IS LOVE.
When I said this to my parents at the time they looked at me like I had lost it (and quickly called in a psychiatrist who referred me to a mental ward - Yay for being awake on Earth!). But I UNDERSTOOD EVERYTHING. Love is the basis of EVERYTHING. It's just that there are LEVELS of it. And EVERYTHING on Earth is LOVE, returning to it's HIGHEST and PUREST form. And in order for that to happen, EVERY SINGLE possibility of LOVE, MUST be played out. So every single crazy scenario that you can possibly think of MUST be played out in order for this process to complete and for us ALL to realize that we are love, and we are one.
While I was going through my crisis I kept getting told, "The worse it gets, the better it gets." Because I was caught up in so much fear and guilt about all these 'bad' things that had happened to me, or that I'd done, my perception of it was all backwards. It took me ages to realize that the worse things got, the more that meant that we were on our way to returning to our true natures. As individuals AND the collective. How many of you have had to hit absolute rock bottom in order to build yourself and your life back up?? And how many of you became healed when you realized that the darkness was not your enemy, but in fact YOU in different forms? How many of you had your lives changed when you learnt to love, forgive and OWN your darkness? Do you not see that this is happening worldwide?
Another interesting - and kind of hilarious - thing that happened to me during my crisis was that I became absolutely CONVINCED that everyone around me was acting. When I broke through the clouds in that giant moment of epiphany (which, as I've mentioned in a previous post, was the moment I felt my guides and team begin cheering) - I was absolutely SURE that everyone around me was about to drop the act and throw confetti over me and shout, "YOU DID IT!!!!!!". I was in the hospital waiting room with my Dad when that happened and I told him we needed to go outside because I was totally sure my mum was about to drive up to the hospital and get out of the car and give me a huge hug and say, "YOU DID IT! I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!" and we would laugh and laugh and laugh together about this big Truman Show world we'd been living in that I'd fully believed for 26 years. I kept looking at my Dad and laughing and saying, "Stop it! Stop tricking me now, I know what's going on!" - I thought he was just carrying on the joke until Mum got there. We went outside but she didn't show up. And Dad kept 'acting' like Dad. And then the psychiatrist called us in and I blabbed on and on about how great I felt and about how everything was LOVE, and it took her about one minute flat to diagnose me with bi-polar disorder. And I felt myself being sucked into this false reality again, where these people believed I was crazy even though I was the most sane I'd been in my whole life, and I didn't care! I just thought it was funny! My soul was just like, "Haha let's just go along with it and see how messed up and interesting this can get." Because everything stopped feeling awful and scary and started feeling like an ADVENTURE. Because NONE OF IT WAS REAL. I was in a virtual reality video game! Why not make it fun!?
The feeling that everyone around me was acting persisted for DAYS. The most surreal and strange days of my life. The feeling of excitement gradually faded into confusion and even upset because I didn't understand why everyone around me was CONTINUING to put on an act with me, even though I knew that they knew what was really going on. But they kept playing those roles - Mum, Dad, Doctor, Nurse, Patients.... they were all acting and I just wanted them to stop it! I was getting more and more confused and I just wanted someone to tell me what was going on. I could FEEL my guides talking to me through the hospital staff. The things they said to me were not normal things for doctors and nurses to say! There were so many strange things that happened that cannot be explained. Because I was fully tapped into a higher reality. I was seeing the HIGHER SELVES of all the people around me, including and especially my family, and it was SO OBVIOUS that the whole world we were living in was just a soap opera with everyone playing characters.
After a couple of days I became convinced that they were waiting until my sister got there - she had been travelling overseas in the US when I got admitted to hospital and came back as soon as she heard the news. I could FEEL HER on the plane, on the way, and I thought she didn't want to miss out on the big reveal so everyone was waiting for her. I then had a hilarious revelation that she hadn't even been travelling!!! It had all been an act too. I remembered seeing an article on Facebook about a girl who had locked herself in her apartment for two months and faked a round-the-world trip by photo-shopping herself into photos of international destinations and posting it all on social media. She did it to prove that it could be done. And I laughed when I realized my sister must have done that too. THAT is how strong the sense of illusion was! Nothing was real, it was all an act. When my sister finally arrived I burst into tears because I was so sure that everything would be revealed now, that everyone would drop the act and tell me what was going on. It was like I was at the epicenter of a giant prank that everyone else was in on but they were stalling on the reveal. But as soon as she walked into the room I could feel by her energy that she was just HER. She knew nothing. And I was totally alone in my knowing that we were all living in a dream.
I tell you about this because this is the concept that I apply to life now, and more specifically to the horrific events that are happening around the world on a daily basis. IT'S NOT REAL. It's just a soap opera that all these souls are JOYFULLY participating in! Trust me when I say that when I broke through to this level of understanding, everything terrible that had happened to me throughout this life and others suddenly was a GOOD thing. It was all perfect and beautiful and a wild and crazy adventure. There was NOTHING bad about any of it. And that is the same for everyone living here. So many are so deeply asleep that they have no idea who they really are and what's really going on... but as soon as they pass over, they will remember. And they will laugh and laugh just like I did.
My husband enjoys watching the news and usually has it on now when I'm cooking dinner. Which bothered me initially because I don't agree with the news or the way it's portrayed and I know so much of it is sensationalist bullshit or distraction from what's really going on in the world. But he feels passionately about watching it so I've had to find my way of being ok with it. As an empathic child I used to find the news horrifying and overwhelming - I was too easily able to put myself in the shoes of those suffering and feel their pain and fear. I couldn't watch horror or violent movies or read any kind of intensely emotional books for the same reason. I attached myself to the suffering, believing it all to be things going horribly wrong. But now I know better. And every time I see or hear something on the news that on the surface appears to be a tragic event, I send congratulations and celebration to all the souls participating in it because I know what's really going on. And I feel awe at how brave they are to have chosen those events to experience. I salute them and spiritually clap them on the back. They are fucking WARRIORS of light and total badasses!
Now when I watch the news I see it for the soap opera it really is, and it doesn't upset me anymore. I can watch or read whatever I want now, because I see the beauty and perfection in all of it. Don't you remember why you came here? Do you remember excitedly putting your hand up and volunteering to participate in this giant game of "Remember who you are"? I remember. I saw that image again and again during my crisis - me standing in a crowd of people and bouncing on my feet with my hand in the air saying, "I'll do it!!! Pick me, pick me!!!" with a huge ecstatic smile on my face. YOU CHOSE THIS. You CHOSE to act out a role in this giant playful plan. You CHOSE to be one little flame of love REMEMBERING that it was love, and returning to its highest purest form.
Don't you remember? Stop worrying about what's happening in the world and just let it play itself out. It's not going to go wrong, it can't possibly go wrong. There IS no 'wrong'. Everything is just LOVE, experiencing itself. It's all just a game. Stop taking it all so seriously and play with it more. It can be hard and scary or it can be flowing and fun - it's all up to you.